A Walk To Remember

Today i woke up at 5.30 a.m (pretty early for me) . A bright summer morning, clear sky, cool breeze- it called for a morning walk. and all i could have for company was my little German Spitz, Koffee for company. Little did he know that the excitement with which he joined me, he would be regretting it altogether in the next 1 hour.
we started off with me admiring nature and he busy sniffing into every other thing on the road. He made me exercise too with running after squirrels, little birds , cats not letting them be at peace in that beautiful morning. i could hear the birds chirping away, the sunlight streaming its way through the green leaves and since it is summer vacation for schools and colleges, I could see kids playing basket ball, cricket and few of them learning to ride a bicycle.. while i was busy looking and exploring those little morning activities of the people on the road, i had totally forgotten about my Koffee.. He had all of a sudden become very quiet. he didn't have the energy to budge from his place anymore.
All my efforts to  make him move went in vain. every passerby had sympathy for him, "poor dog, how much can he walk". and here i was all embarrassed as to why i did this to him and myself??!!
and after 5 minutes, i was hurriedly rushing back  to home with Koffee in my arms. every onlooker had different expression which showed different emotion  rather curiosity but all i wanted was to reach home fast. Koffee was enjoying the walk of his life. He had perfectly (read snugly) fit himself into my arms and had the look on his face which said "don't make me walk this much again"

By the time i reached home the sole purpose and utility of the morning walk was gone. instead of relaxing, i was furious at that little thing for all the trouble he caused me. but then it was a totally unique experience and a different walk to remember!!

Niceties of Nice

To appear beautiful,
What vile things we do!
To get ourselves taken in
How much we give in
Suppressing truth,
Glorifying falsity,
Singing in the praise of deceit,
Laughing at sincerity,
Holding up virtue to disparage
Promises as sticky tentacles
All this we do blatantly
To pass off as beautiful
Acceptable in society at a price
Baring niceties of nice.

The Final Good Bye

4 years- you call it an era ; maybe not but i do!

Yes i do because it taught me the most important lessons of life, it helped me grow as a person, it gave me a bunch of beautiful people in my life, it made my life..

When everyone was gone and i had to stay back in 2A 58 alone for two days; I realized college is over. Now i have to cater to myself, i cant look forward to Swati or Sunita doing small jobs for me beacuse they have left. I dont see those innocence filled eyes of Sweetu, she is gone leaving behind an emptiness which cant be ever filled. How i wish the station was an easier place to let go off people, but it becomes even more difficult-the last time i saw Stuti (that face is going to last me a lifetime), the last time i saw Vidit. That one day 12.05.2012- all i did was see all my loved ones go away..It started off with one awful morning with Akansha, Aditi leaving; it wasnt the first time but the pain was all the same, it was making me feel even more insecure. All I could do is smile,because i wanted to see them go smiling. by the time this could sink in, I had to see off Bhavana. I didnt know how to respond, I really didnt know how to react, I didnt know whether I would again see her or not, I knew she was going and she left leaving behind tears. With Shalvi and Shailesh leaving that same evening, all i could do was ponder how many more hours for me to leave this place???

13.05.2012- I knew it wasnt going to be easy but it was inevitable. All the happenings of this day will remain with me till I breathe my last. I cant forget that eerie silence that kept creeping in after Nam left. Anchal was trying hard to be optimistic. "sab wapas aayenge" is all she kept on telling. I was tired of seeing off people but there was still more to go. Couldnt avoid the moment when i finally said a good bye to Shibashish, Nirvick and Pratik- it felt pathetic but I was helpless.

And then when one last final time Gourav drove me back to hostel,it was difficult. I knew it was over for me too. I had nothing to say, nothing to do..all i had to is move from this place and leave for home.

August 2008, I had come to this place with tears in my eyes and May 2012, I leave this place with tears in my eyes. 

My college gave me some memories which i would treasure forever, it gave me people who taught me what is right or wrong, friends who taught me to smile, trips for which I would do anything to live them again..

Who will not call this an era??

I DEFINITELY WOULD!!

With lots of people pressing hard that i should create a blog of my own..here i am really doing that.

 Always felt that thoughts, emotions which storm your heart and mind are better when not expressed. You never know how many unnecessary question and answer sessions they may lead to from family, friends and even yourself. And its easier to answer or avoid questions from parents and friends but then how do i explain myself as to why i was thinking so.. why did I do that in my mind when i was not supposed to do it, why did i think bad about that person when i am not supposed, why have i started to hate someone or why have i started to like someone.. These thoughts are better when not expressed to avoid further turbulence in life..